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February 9, 2017 | 1 Comment
“No one can tell what goes on in between the person you were and the person you become. No one can chart that blue and lonely section of hell. There are no maps of the change. You just come out the other side.
Or you don’t.”
– Stephen King
I have come out the other side. Stronger, better, and a wiser person for it. People ask me if I regret what happened to me, if I could go back, would I change it? No, no I wouldn’t. Because of so many things. But mostly because if I did do that, who would I be today? Someone I wouldn’t recognize, I’m sure. Everything that happens, happens to make you who you are today, and if you love who you are today then you can’t regret anything. People say I’m impulsive, but not in a crazy terrible way, but that’s because you can be impulsive and rational. When you don’t regret and still want to be happy and look out for yourself, you learn the beautiful balance of being impulsive while practicing rational decisions.
Shitty things happen all the time, since I’ve moved here I cant say all my experiences have been positive. Some I’d like to forget, some I wish didn’t happen, and some incredible experiences that are helping me push forward. I miss being home, I really do, but if I could go back now would I? It’s not time yet. It’s not time for me to go home, and while I hold my head up and am proud of my past, proud of who I am, it’s been a difficult road to cope with alone. Yes I have my furry child, my cat rescued me as much as I rescued him. And it’s great, because I have the unconditional love of a creature that acts on instinct and still chooses me, still loves me and takes care of me. What more can I ask for.
If you know who you are, if you love who are you, no one can hurt you. Do you. I am. For once, I really am.
Happy New Year